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2006-03-02T05:29:20Z

well updated. it's been a minute. post a comment and tell me ur still alive.

tell me i'm a bird.

2005-06-21T22:12:07Z

gosh i am extremely happy. me and Jared are talking again. its amazing. i made him smile again and it was almost like flirting when we first met. omgosh. i'm so happy. long story...

x REL ality (10:02:25 PM): its gonna be perfect ;]
x REL ality (10:02:35 PM): were gonna be perfect.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:03:16 PM): we'll see
x REL ality (10:03:22 PM): no
x REL ality (10:03:26 PM): it will!
x REL ality (10:03:31 PM): DORK!
x REL ality (10:03:43 PM): rofl.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:03:46 PM): theres a chance but i dunno just gotta see what happens
x REL ality (10:03:52 PM): no no nono
x REL ality (10:03:54 PM): rofl
x REL ality (10:03:55 PM): IT WILL
x REL ality (10:04:00 PM): say it please ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:04:08 PM): no lol you need to prove me wrong
x REL ality (10:04:16 PM): well say it then ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:04:24 PM): we could be perfect
x REL ality (10:04:26 PM): noo
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:04:28 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:04:31 PM): will*
x REL ality (10:04:33 PM): say it ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:04:34 PM): we will be
x REL ality (10:04:40 PM): we will be perfect*
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:04:41 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:04:42 PM): ROFL
x REL ality (10:04:54 PM): dont try and cut it off ;[
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:04:55 PM): your a trip
x REL ality (10:04:56 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:05:01 PM): say it ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:05:08 PM): i cant believe how hard your trying its trippy
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:05:14 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:05:17 PM): say it!
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:05:20 PM): no
x REL ality (10:05:23 PM): say "we will be perfect"
x REL ality (10:05:26 PM): com on
x REL ality (10:05:27 PM): say it.
x REL ality (10:05:29 PM): ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:05:34 PM): you have to prove me wrong a-hole
x REL ality (10:05:44 PM): when you say it ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:05:55 PM): i;ll say it when you prove me wrong
x REL ality (10:05:55 PM): when you believe with me. "we will be perfect"
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:05:57 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:06:01 PM): no
x REL ality (10:06:04 PM): come on.
x REL ality (10:06:10 PM): you gatta say it.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:06:14 PM): but i dont know if we will be yet
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:06:19 PM): so i dont wana say it
x REL ality (10:06:20 PM): you do.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:06:25 PM): cause what if its the same and we fight all the time still
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:06:29 PM): i dont wana be like that
x REL ality (10:06:29 PM): its not
x REL ality (10:06:42 PM): stop being so damn pessimistic
x REL ality (10:06:46 PM): lamo how ever you spell that crap
x REL ality (10:06:50 PM): lmao*
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:06:55 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:06:56 PM): just say it with me ;]
x REL ality (10:06:59 PM): please?
x REL ality (10:07:11 PM): we will be perfect.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:07:11 PM): well shit i dont exactly think were all that perfect anymore
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:07:14 PM): it was there but now im not sure
x REL ality (10:07:21 PM): we wiiill
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:07:25 PM): ok ok
x REL ality (10:07:26 PM): its a promise.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:07:29 PM): but im not saying it till you prove mem wrong
x REL ality (10:07:34 PM): you gatta.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:07:36 PM): no
x REL ality (10:07:42 PM): you gatta show me you believe it will.
x REL ality (10:07:49 PM): and i promisr to make it worth it.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:08:16 PM): yeah well you got some proving to do
x REL ality (10:08:23 PM): i know.
x REL ality (10:08:28 PM): but you gatta believe with me.
x REL ality (10:08:35 PM): that's all i'm asking.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:08:39 PM): ill believe it when i see it lol
x REL ality (10:08:57 PM): if you want me to show it.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:09:02 PM): and this means no drugs and everything if im gonna even think about giving this a chance
x REL ality (10:09:03 PM): then just say we'll be perfect.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:09:09 PM): weed i can deal with but nothing else
x REL ality (10:09:21 PM): i know.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:09:44 PM): i dont wana have to deal with all that again
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:09:56 PM): you know how bad i hate it and how mad i get
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:10:19 PM): you slipped alot rell i dunno man you just got so much to prove i duno if your gonna be able to handle lol
x REL ality (10:11:01 PM): jared anything for you.
x REL ality (10:11:09 PM): your the one i want to be with.
x REL ality (10:11:26 PM): i just want you to say it.
x REL ality (10:11:27 PM): for me.
x REL ality (10:11:31 PM): that's all.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:11:48 PM): hmm
x REL ality (10:11:50 PM): and i'll prove you wrong to everything.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:12:01 PM): what if you font
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:12:03 PM): dont
x REL ality (10:12:07 PM): but i will.
x REL ality (10:12:17 PM): jared have i ever told you everything like this?
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:12:43 PM): no thats why i dunno why you waited so freaking long
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:12:51 PM): its just kinda like wtf to late now
x REL ality (10:12:59 PM): its never to late.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:13:02 PM): cause i got it in my head already that we were over
x REL ality (10:13:08 PM): its never to late to make things better.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:13:16 PM): i dunno
x REL ality (10:13:18 PM): well shake it out NERD!
x REL ality (10:13:20 PM): rofl.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:13:23 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:13:33 PM): because this is gonna work.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:13:34 PM): now im not sure though i have doubts
x REL ality (10:13:42 PM): i don't care what we need to go through
x REL ality (10:13:49 PM): but we will be perfect.
x REL ality (10:13:59 PM): well get those damn doubts out.
x REL ality (10:14:09 PM): because everything is gonna be fine.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:14:19 PM): k
x REL ality (10:14:31 PM): k and......
x REL ality (10:14:34 PM): COUGH
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:14:37 PM): lol
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:14:50 PM): we will be perfect
x REL ality (10:14:56 PM): thanks ;]
x REL ality (10:15:00 PM): you know what?
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:15:03 PM): what
x REL ality (10:15:16 PM): we will be perfect ;-)
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:15:27 PM): good

it took exactly 15 mins to convince the forker that we will be perfect. but i did it. and there's still hope. you just gatta be positive. I relalized, if you want something bad enough, it will work and you will change for the person you love. I love jared until forever and a day. Nothing and i repeat NOTHING, will break us. not even YOU. ahaha.

xX MastR MinD Xx (10:16:01 PM): need to get to bed
x REL ality (10:16:06 PM): me too.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:16:20 PM): i'll talk to you later/tomorrow
x REL ality (10:16:25 PM): tomorrow.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:16:36 PM): before gym or after.
x REL ality (10:16:42 PM): before and after.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:16:43 PM): i'll beon
x REL ality (10:16:46 PM): rofl.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:16:48 PM): lol
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:16:51 PM): hows you
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:17:03 PM): ok goodnight
x REL ality (10:17:11 PM): sweetdreams ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:17:16 PM): sweet dreams too

xX MastR MinD Xx (10:22:54 PM): night night
x REL ality (10:22:56 PM): one more thing
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:22:58 PM): yes
x REL ality (10:23:13 PM): were gonna be perfect ;x
x REL ality (10:23:19 PM): right?
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:23:25 PM): well see
x REL ality (10:23:29 PM): AHEM!
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:23:33 PM): it lays in your hands
x REL ality (10:23:38 PM): what did you just say a minutes ago!
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:23:50 PM): i said it once effer now the rest is up to you
x REL ality (10:24:04 PM): but you gatta keep saying it.
x REL ality (10:24:10 PM): because it will.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:24:21 PM): yes
x REL ality (10:24:32 PM): k.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:24:39 PM): night
x REL ality (10:24:46 PM): night. i love you ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:24:51 PM): ditto
x REL ality (10:24:53 PM): bye.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:24:55 PM): bye bye
x REL ality (10:24:58 PM): i miss you.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:25:05 PM): me too
x REL ality (10:25:19 PM): goodnight.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:25:21 PM): ok shut up lol i gotta get some sleep
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:25:25 PM): good night
x REL ality (10:25:26 PM): lmao
x REL ality (10:25:30 PM): ok
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:25:32 PM): bye
x REL ality (10:25:35 PM): one more thing
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:25:39 PM): lol yes
x REL ality (10:25:41 PM): rofl
x REL ality (10:25:51 PM): nothing. i just love you a lot.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:25:57 PM): aw lol
x REL ality (10:26:00 PM): and i would do anything for you.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:26:11 PM): man you really changed
x REL ality (10:26:13 PM): ok good night.
x REL ality (10:26:21 PM): i need you that's why.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:26:23 PM): you never acted this way before
x REL ality (10:26:38 PM): is it bad?
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:26:43 PM): no
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:26:46 PM): just a bit late
x REL ality (10:26:50 PM): no its not.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:26:53 PM): now im second guessing everything
x REL ality (10:27:04 PM): well second guess your damn foot.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:27:08 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:27:17 PM): i love you.
x REL ality (10:27:23 PM): and we WILL be perfect.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:27:46 PM): ok shut up i need to go
x REL ality (10:27:52 PM): i missed you.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:27:57 PM): me too
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:00 PM): ok good night lol
x REL ality (10:28:05 PM): ok i love you.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:09 PM): ditto
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:10 PM): night
x REL ality (10:28:11 PM): more.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:14 PM): holy crap
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:15 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:28:21 PM): okay
x REL ality (10:28:24 PM): ahahaha
x REL ality (10:28:29 PM): ok goodnight.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:34 PM): night
x REL ality (10:28:35 PM): ok the pigs are out.
x REL ality (10:28:39 PM): they said night too.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:44 PM): ty
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:28:47 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:28:48 PM): they said they love you too.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:00 PM): lol
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:06 PM): night mofo
x REL ality (10:29:08 PM): don;t you love them back?
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:16 PM): no they shit on my roof they can go fuck themselfs
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:20 PM): lol
x REL ality (10:29:23 PM): tell them you love them.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:26 PM): no
x REL ality (10:29:33 PM): ok tell me then.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:35 PM): no
x REL ality (10:29:37 PM): rofl.
x REL ality (10:29:40 PM): ok i love you too.
x REL ality (10:29:44 PM): aha
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:47 PM): you have to gain it back
x REL ality (10:29:49 PM): I SEE THAT SMIRK!
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:54 PM): lol
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:55 PM): so
x REL ality (10:29:57 PM): i will.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:29:58 PM): ok stfu damn lol
x REL ality (10:30:05 PM): and i know we'll be perfect ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:30:09 PM): yes
x REL ality (10:30:12 PM): and i love you too ;x
x REL ality (10:30:15 PM): and i miss you TOO ;x
x REL ality (10:30:17 PM): rofl.
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:30:18 PM): lol
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:30:22 PM): night!
x REL ality (10:30:24 PM): ok
x REL ality (10:30:26 PM): wait
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:30:27 PM): ok
x REL ality (10:30:39 PM): bye ;]
xX MastR MinD Xx (10:30:42 PM): bye bye

ROFL. that was the cutest crap. and the pigs are an inside joke, just so you know. GAH, i love him. Oh and one more thing, at around 9:30pm Jared said he was gonna shower. and i guess he forgot. because we continued talking ;]. i just realized that today.

LISTEN.

2005-06-18T20:50:45Z

Mad Caddies- Drinking for 11

Drinking for eleven, that's just what i do,
When i'm not with you,
My heart goes to bed

End of the bar, that's just where i'll be,
Don't try and come find me
Cause i'm already dead

With one eye tied upon the open road
I feel your presence and i can't let it go
It moves so slowly as it creeps into my mind,
Steals every breath i have and leaves my heart behind

Wanna know what you're feeling if your feeling alone
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time i remember you was the last time i wasn't scared

When the nights start fading and the mornin' arrives
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground
Once more and tell me what you're fighting for

Gotta try gotta try for tomorrow
When you can't see through to day
There's nowhere left to stay

Sometimes i feel like im out here all alone
Just one in million stuck with no place left to go

The fear steps up to me with every move that i make
Following close behind my soul it wants to take

i might regret this, but what the hell.

2005-06-13T00:41:15Z

THIS IS HOW IT WORKS:

1. If you want me to answer, COMMENT me.
2. If you want to see what people want to ask you, COPY &PASTE.

You can ask me any 3 questions no matter how personal,inappropriate, or random they are.

I promise to answer the questions 100% truthfullly. lol. i think.

xrellish @ 2005-01-03T18:00:00

2005-01-04T04:01:21Z

This is for friends only. Leave a comment if you want me to add you ;]

RELL

back in business...

tell me i'm a bird.

LISTEN.

i might regret this, but what the hell.

xrellish @ 2005-01-03T18:00:00